Random Thought #2

How I felt on Mother's Day.

Let me back up. A year ago, we knew our kids were out there (we had just been put on the wait list), most likely already born and living in Ethiopia. We celebrated Mother's Day and Father's Day. It was happy and we said, maybe next year we will know our kiddos. But we were parents then, as we are now-even though our children are not living with us yet- some will completely understand our position and feelings, others may not.

Now to the present. Last week I received a Mother's Day card from my friend Sarah who is going to bring her little girl Bir home from Ethiopia very soon. Yay! I was so happy to get my very first Mother's Day card! I burst into happy tears. I called Sarah. It was such a good feeling.

Mother's Day. It was a strange feeling. I don't know how to describe it. I didn't want to go to church or anywhere. I just wanted to stay home. I didn't want to say Happy Mother's Day and not hear it in return. There were a few who did wish me Happy Mother's Day. Thank you, thank you, thank you!

I have to be honest, that is important I think, to share my genuine thoughts and feelings. Besides, maybe one of you is feeling the same way at this exact moment. And then we won't feel so alone. I am normally very upbeat, positive and know when the time is right, everything will fall into place for us. As I have mentioned before, the wait is really not a problem. I think Mother's Day just triggered something in me and I was, well a bit sad. It was to be exact, bittersweet.